Introducing me

Okay guys hi. I honestly wasn’t sure (still not sure) what to call this newsletter. I have gone back and forth between so many names, I’ve been scrolling all through Pinterest and google looking for “good news letter names.” I dug myself deep into a rabbit hole searching for a name. Unfortunately, I’m comparing the names that I’ve came up with and think “oh those aren’t good enough” or “I feel like it needs to be better” when in reality I need to do what I want to do.

So for starters I feel like I need to introduce myself for those who don’t know me or don’t follow me. I get nervous typing this because it’s feels like i’m on a first date and the person that I’m on the date with says “tell me a bit about yourself” and of course I want to make a good first impression but all that I come up with is “Oh, I read and go for walks.” When in reality I could actually talk about myself and who I am for hours.

Now’s the part where I say a little bit about myself. I live in Indiana and I’ve been living here my whole life. I went to high school here, grew up here with Midwest summers, my family is here and I overall love it. I went to college ,before the pandemic, and studied Psychology. Unfortunately due to Covid I did drop out of college. It was during the time where everything shut down, and classes were moved to online. I respect those people who did online classes but unfortunately it was damaging my mental health so I did have to drop out. Majoring in psychology really changed my perspective of a lot of things, and eventually I do see myself going back to college in the future to major in Social Work.

Im currently 24, single, living at home with my parents, working full time, while also maintaining friendships. I recently just got a full time job, so it’s been a big change. My previous job I was working as a barista and then eventually got promoted to manager at a local coffee shop. I worked there for about 3 years and I think it was the most fun I had. I learned so much and met so many amazing people.

Now onto things I love, you can skip this part if you want. I love concerts, music, traveling, reading, dogs, iced coffee, matcha, harry styles, taylor swift, disco balls, the moon, fresh flowers, fall, spring, Halloween, the color blue, lemons, cosmos, Moscow mules, romcoms, formula 1, romance books, New York City, and so much more. I could go on and on about things I like and things I don’t like, but I feel like the more I post on this the more you guys can get to know me

Some of you guys might be wondering “emily what made you want to start a newsletter?”

I love to read, not sure if I mentioned that before, but if I did I am just reiterating it. If you ask any of my friends where they would get their book recommendations, they’d probably say from me. I love escaping into another world. Reading a book feels like you’re a side character watching other people live their lives. As Taylor Swift once said in her song “I hate it here”, she says “I hate it here so I will go to secret gardens in my mind” and that’s what reading a book feels like. It feels like I’m entering a secret world that me and the author (and other fellow readers) know about.

Last October I had an epiphany. I wanted to write, I wanted people to read my words. I wanted people to be able to understand and relate to what I wrote. I wanted to write about what I’ve been through, about the relationships I’ve been apart of, about the situationships I had to overcome. When I started coming up with paragraphs and paragraphs about this 10 month long situationship I was apart of I was thinking to myself ”I want people to see this. I want people who’ve been through toxic or abusive relationships to read this and know that they are not alone and that I too have been through this.” It took me awhile to type out a few paragraphs and details about the things that happened with the failed situationship I was apart of but then, I just stopped writing. I’m not sure why I stopped writing, but I did. I think it was too hard for me mentally to continue going on and on about that situation. It was around November or December that I just completely forgot about the paragraphs that I had written. Now we’re in July, and I haven’t read those paragraphs that I wrote. As I’m typing this now, this has been the first time in 7 months where I wrote something and I want people to read it.

My main goal for my future is I want to write a book. Back in October I thought I wanted to write a book about my experiences with the failed situationship. Thinking about it now in July, I don’t want to write a book based off of that experience. I don’t want to reopen those wounds that are healing. That was a chapter in my life that I’m closing. This is a new chapter of my life that I am opening and I hope you guys will stay to read it.

I don’t know what I want my book to be about, but that’s why I have this newsletter. I have this here to share my thoughts with you guys. I have this newsletter here to dip my toes in the water of journalism. I have this newsletter here so you guys can get to know me.

If you were also thinking “Emily what are some topics you’ll be sharing in your newsletter?” That is a great question because even I don’t know. I want to talk about random things. Taylor swifts newest album, the time I flew to New York not knowing anyone I was staying with just to see Harry Styles, female friendships in your 20s, what mental health means to me, the 10 month long situationship era and how down bad I was for someone who had me blocked. I might share on my bookstagram what the newsletter topic will be but who knows, this is all brand new to me so it might take awhile to get adjusted.

If you’ve made it this far in the newsletter thank you. Thank you for reading all of this and thank you for taking time out of your day, night, or afternoon where ever you are. I hope you stick around so I can get to know you some more as well.

Love,

Em <3